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Now I pray at Mass

My testimony appeared on page letter Christendom

Everything in me is still niezwerbalizowane, and more intuitive.

I understand that during the Mass, you can pray the rosary. Nay, that even you can adore the Blessed Sacrament exposed

... All of my so-called. Sacramental education acquired at school, an oasis and just post-Vatican II Church begins to crack at the seams tight. Since childhood, I heard that so it is important to actively participate in the Mass, and for some time teasing me, this formulation. The reason that I am making a lifetime effort to actively participate in the Mass, but still faces obstacles - mainly internal fragmentation and lack of understanding of how the really participate. What is this finally it? About replying to the priest? The singing? The tracking of the liturgical action? About consciousness? Only an awareness of what? What is happening or what is really going on here-happening? Even if that's what that meant, why the so-called new Mass was introduced under the banner of the This was not / could not be in the old?

I have a big cult of the Blessed Sacrament, and always seemed to me that I love the Eucharist. I considered a great achievement for the council (sic) NOM. Not knowing quite old Mass said that I love NOM:) Even though they are already convinced of the rightness of the old Mass behavior - mostly I wanted to break with tradition, the argument by a new liturgy - and even with formation NOM'u unjust, "I did not feel the need to" walk the old mass.
The situation changed when close enough We began to celebrate the old Mass. Mainly at the instigation of her husband started to go there. At the beginning I tried to "participate" in this Mass, as in NOM'ie. However, it quickly realized that I just can not. A friend advised us not used during the Mass mszalików. It turned out to me the key.

Now at the Mass I simply am with God and, finally, I pray, because over the years, the Eucharistic liturgy for anything she did not want to be a prayer for me, despite the efforts made. Here, quite effortlessly, I pray, abide with God. Therefore, I am able to understand that people used to recite the rosary, and adored, because the Mass is adoration, prayer is the greatest, deepest encounter with God, where God comes into our eyes and we can take him to the hearts, in addition tangibly.

But I have confidence that such survival possible for me just trying Mass. I do not know how it is better, I do not want anyone to teach it, nor do any standards! I only speak about my own experience. New Mass so I can not live. The Why? For sure, first, because of the silence, which is practically no in NOMI, and that the old Mass simply creates prayer space for me. Secondly, the attitude. Old Mass can be almost the entire przeklęczeć, and no one can convince me that the attitude of the body is of no importance (Indeed, this topic for a separate entry, because it is "my" discovery, but even earlier). It is precisely this adoration. If I kneel, it means that something significant is happening. Thirdly, because the priest is praying. The NOMI it should, but I have the impression that often must be included. And this is not a plea to any priest! This is simply due to the rite. "Style" is a form of force and leaves what comes out. Me this forced to follow the priest, not a liturgical action, indeed just nieśledzenia anything. In the old Mass did not need to know at what point is a priest. And nothing will add to the consecration, that only he can perform. NOM so much wants to turn us into all that up creates the illusion that we współkonsekrujemy with the priest, that our role (as believers) is huge. We are afraid of humility. From this inflection born when lay hands stretch to the consecration, saying the text of the consecration, or some argue the Host with the priest. In the old Mass so I am happy with my place in the back row, with the possibility of kneeling, silence, being with Jesus. Suddenly even my frisky dwulatek does not bother me in focus! For simplicity, without wydumania assume an attitude of gratitude to the Saviour, who gives himself to us. There is no need for so-called "something more", because you can not really add anything more to the Holy Sacrifice! She is the greatest, and we are privileged place that we adore her and take her in Communion. I deliberately want to avoid here the words that we can participate in it. Although no one in the old Mass does not prohibit us that! But I'm finding their place in the Mass, I began to be, be with God. In my opinion, NOM putting too much emphasis on participation, he forgets what is the goal and suddenly it becomes to participate in the samy. And then it turns out that this is not enough. And it is true, because the goal is to be with God. At this, after all will consist of eternity. This discovery, by experience, I wish for everyone.